Help me call you back 'Cause I'm afraid of the ringing I know I'm fucked, but I'm still steadily fixing The gears in my guts, 'cause they're all twisted up I feel tight in my chest through the smoke in my lungs But hold your tongue 'til you see what I'm making How everything else ended simple and lonely But this isn't me, it's my final critique Of my bones, of my skin, of the hate killing me I'm cold on skin contact, blue as a newborn's lips 'Cause on the day I was born I was horrified to take a breath And I miss the water 'Cause it meant nothing without anyone else around But I thought that it's all that I wanted I've grown to fear the isolation I chose to take a part of Now I get how cliches came to be Though I spent so much time thinking they were below me Simple, the truth that my father had told There is nothing to do if you're constantly alone I'd lose everything To make up for the person I've been I'd lose everything To make up for the person I've been I'd lose everything I'd lose everything