Why my clock don't show emotion
My wrist watch is just for boastin'
All my time spent rollercoastin'
When I'm down I wish I'm floatin'
When I ain't up then I'm sunken
Sometimes I can't keep it rollin'
I don't cry I just feel broken
God can you please bring me closer
No AP can show these tears from
Broken hearted years
I feared that once i showed I'm hurt
You'd disappear and let me deal with all the cards I'm dealt
But I done went through depths
And I swear I been stuck in debt
And close people I loved, they left
And most times I wished it was me
I was fucked up in the crib
Ashes burnt holes in my bib
Cus I was baby to the world
But once I manned up they come quick
To ask for this and this and this
Now they don't check up on the kid
Cus I done well in hell
In heaven, I wonder how it would feel
I found what felt just like peace
Helping those who broke to pieces
Just to realize those I helped don't even care to do me even
Let alone to see me breathing
Now I feel it's best I leave 'em
Cut off ties with those who watched me tie myself
Ain't look to free me
I been livin' life in destitute
Left abandoned, a recluse
I been so damn stuck inside my head and I just can't let loose
Guess that's the abandonment and Prozac tryna speak out through
This beat that chills my veins
More than them damn menthols could ever do
Why my clock don't show emotion
My wrist watch is just for boastin'
All my time spent rollercoastin'
When I'm down I wish I'm floatin'
When I ain't up then I'm sunken
Sometimes I can't keep it rollin'
I don't cry I just feel broken
God can you please bring me closer
Pateks can't do nothing for me
Therapy ain't in my story
I can't let it all out to no one
Cus they ain't really for me
I been dolo since I first could tell time as a little shortie
On my darkest days I pray to God to try to ease up on me
I know I'm too strong to be crying over spilled cups of Borden
Beyond a borderline
Obsessed with anything that still haunts me
IV's in my system filling me up with a evil poison
I break out Emergencies in urgency
I keep avoiding doctors
Cus I just can't trust no one that ain't TWENTY24FOUR
I just got myself but that's enough for me
I ain't need no one except for me