I still run to you But sometimes I think I'm a fool And I still lie to you Even though I know that's just not cool Girl, I'm just tryna grow Cause my insecurities show And I'm just tryna grow So I don't blame you if you go We only talk when I'm lonely Cause my ass is controlling Only showing you love in the times I need me a moment Instead of coming in slowly, I ripped the brakes from my car In a hope that we can collide and become a slogan For the way it feels to be with you Like a navy seal; I'd rather be alone, but have you still That's how I feel And how I deal with all this shit is how I heal from trauma from my past But I ain't ask you to be my happy meal I'm saying this Cause I still run to you But sometimes I think I'm a fool And I still lie to you Even though I know that's just not cool Girl, I'm just tryna grow Cause my insecurities show And I'm just tryna grow So I don't blame you if you go Every moment that you waited on me You were open and were patient with me But I was happy doing me and chasing all these other highs Cause I had comfort that no matter what I'd do that you were always gon' be mine But all the guilt I feel is now remorse Cause even though we ride 'til we die, we shifted course Seeing eye to eye wasn't hard, but it's important If I ever gave you my heart, just know it's yours Cause I still run to you But sometimes I think I'm a fool And I still lie to you Even though I know that's just not cool Girl, I'm just tryna grow Cause my insecurities show And I'm just tryna grow So I don't blame you if you go