And I've been trying to prove
That I can live despite meeting you
That life is more than I see
Void of love with uncertainty
Sometimes I think I've bitten off more than I can chew
While that's not true I guess I've just had a hard time admitting that I'm practically nothing in the grand scheme of what I believe
And what I believe is transceived as how people think of me
And I guess I've just grown tired of being someone who's not
Being the fact that I have to put on a mask for people to admire me
Is that how I'm supposed to live life
Just pretending that I'm some kind of saint and I've never looked upon a demon with envy
And I don't see you like I used to
Are you there?
Am I still chasing or more displacing
The thought of you
I've got this feeling in my bones that says it's wrong
And I've got this pain in my head that says it's right
This is all growing to be too much to handle
The weight's broken my back to match the rest of me
And I've sat in contemplation for the past five nights to try and find the best of me
But I've run dry of hope and will to believe that there could be more than me
And I don't see you like I used to
Are you there?
Am I still chasing or more displacing
The thought of you
I never wanted to haunt you
But I chose that over cutting my ties with you because I needed you
I never wanted to let my pride stand in the way of my desires
But my God only, he knew you were what I had really desire
And while I can see through all the stress and I fail this test after test that you put me through
I still stayed so I could wake up to you every morning
Start everyday with my eyes opening to you and your intoxication that was misconstrued as beauty alone
Cause beauty is a mask we wear to sleep
Beauty is a mask we wear than what they perceive
But if grace has taught me one thing
It's that in the end, beauty means nothing
And I don't see you like I used to
Are you there?
Am I still chasing or more displacing
The thought of you