I turned my senses inside out
To fight the sixth one
I strive with myself
I strive against it
Extrasensory perception
Sight, Smell, Taste, Hearing,
Touch overwhelmed by the new shit
I walk alone through burned sensations
Material world escapes me
Nothing seems to move in the ravaged landscape of my eyes but I have a strange sensation
There is another reality, tangible
A strange multiplicity of sensations seizes me now but it has nothing to do with
What I can see, smell, taste, hear or touch.
My conscience distorts
I'm overcome by something stronger, something I can't control
I can't kick it out
Inside/outside conflicts
I can't let it come inside through me
I see myself lying on my back as cold as marble
Wounded outside, Burst inside, I'm beside myself just contemplating
How I'm lost inside me, dead inside, I'm beside myself just contemplating how he's lost
All senses gone out of control
How I'm lonely in this world
Staring at myself, staring at the void
My nerves electrified
Shocked by the undefined
They try to revive myself in vain
Spasms shake my body
Spasms ... I'm alive ... I breathe ...
I regain my strength
I breathe
I regain consciousness
I remember first the unpleasant noise of medical machines becoming distant and unreal
Pleasant and frightening emotions sweeping through me while I detached from myself and floated above my own body
I 've never met deceased relatives or spiritual figures, nor walked through a tunnel to reach a strong and bright light
I was just watching myself dying as a witness of my own ending...
I'm just a watcher...
I travelled too far
I took too much time to come back home, come back to my fragile life
"I could not speak and my eyes failed
I was neither living nor dead
And I knew nothing
Yes I knew nothing
Looking into the heart of light, the silence..."
Wounded outside, Burst inside, I'm beside myself just contemplating
How I'm lost inside me, dead inside, I'm beside myself eyes open staring at the void
Where are the people who saved my life and abandoned me in this hospital?
Where is civilisation?
What are these empty places?
These devastated rooms
I can't say anything or put a word on things
I feel so lonely in my waste world...