As the constellations separated; the moonlight dimmed and dulled
All along, I was afraid of losing you the most
With the stars in my eyes, I was an oracle
I could see the constellations form in the sky like clockwork
Imagery of misery; beautiful destruction
And I passed it all off as a bad dream - unconscious corruption
And then it came like lightning - a flash of blinding revelation
The night you lost your life to match my nervous prediction
I knew before a single word ever let me know that it was time to let you go
Didn't have a choice - didn't have a voice
Drowned out by the noise of the faucet running
But I remember all those years ago when we would lay beneath the sky
And you would always point to the moon
Telling me how you thought it was a big balloon and that we should just deflate it
Watch it cascade - watch it float down - wither and fade like the petals in your rose garden
Telling me the most beautiful things never last long
And you were never wrong
I watched your tormented eyes lose focus too easily
I hate myself because I never realised just how much you needed me
Could I have made a difference?
Could I have changed the outcome for you?
I treat my hands like there's blood on them
And like there's nothing I can do
I knew before a single word ever let me know that it was time to let you go
Didn't have a choice - didn't have a voice
Drowned out by the noise of the faucet running
I knew before I had even picked up the phone that you had just died alone
All those years of smiles, insincere
You never wanted to be here
As the constellations separated; the moonlight dimmed and dulled
All along, I was afraid of losing you the most
I knew before a single word ever let me know that it was time to let you go
Didn't have a choice - didn't have a voice
Drowned out by the noise of the faucet running
I knew before I had even picked up the phone that you had just died alone
All those years of smiles, insincere
You never wanted to be here
Didn't have a choice but to feel you disappear
Didn't have a voice that you could ever hear
Didn't have a choice but to feel you disappear
Didn't have a voice - I never had a voice