Defiled, insecure A liar, & obscure I'm nothing more than the trauma I had to endure No color, no taste Everything is gray You killed a piece of me the day you fucked away my sanity Holding on to a life in my head Barely holding on Holding on to a life I never wanted Still holding on How low can I go? Till I sink How low can I go? Till I break How low can I go? Till I think How low can I go? There's nothing left in me Destroying everything Devalue my own being The shame you left in me Is the reason to my insecurities Avoid the past The pain is here to last Afraid to fall in love and leave myself vulnerable enough To take and take My innocence from me And rape, you raped The life right out of me So take and take My innocence from me And rape, you raped The life right out of me Holding on to a life in my head Barely holding on Holding on to a life I never wanted Still holding on