Stitch my eyes closed
So I can sleep
Haven't ate in days
Im feeling weak
Tie me down beneath these waves
So I won't have to face another day
Turning lil things
Into big nothings
Then hide the fact
That I'm still self destructing
To help me cope
With these shitty feelings
But only hurting
Those who care for me
I'm sorry for being myself
I'm sorry for thinking I could be someone else
I'm sorry for dreaming, I'm sorry for thinking
That I could be bigger than life itself
So this is it, this is it, this is how it ends
With me drowning myself in the deep end
My insecurities are becoming me
Now I've lost everything that makes me, me
Tell me why do you all still love me
When all I've given you is nothing but hurting
Even tho I wish it wasn't true
I wish I could be a better me for you
I'm sick of trying to only fail
I'm sick of hating my-goddamn-self
I'm sick of wasting time to get high
I'm sick of running away from what makes me feel alive
I'm feeling lost again
I'm feeling helpless
Lost myself again
I feel so worthless
Why is pain is the only thing that makes me feel alive.
I'm sorry for being myself
I'm sorry for thinking I could be someone else
I'm sorry for dreaming, I'm sorry for thinking
I could be bigger than life itself
So this is it, this is it, this is how it ends
With me drowning myself in the deep end
My insecurities are becoming me
Now I've lost everything that makes me, me