Long lonely nights My thoughts are a mess I know what I want but what I want I can't get Can't tell what day it is sometimes sometimes I sit alone and I cry And I think off all the things that have gone wrong with me in this life Grim loneliness and sorrow thrives in me The seeds of hate have matured at an accelerated rate causing doom to loom Waiting for the moment I decide it's time to die Grim loneliness and sorrow thrives in me The seeds of hate have matured at an accelerated rate causing doom to loom Waiting for the moment I decide it's time to die My childhood memories are a pain ingrained in me To reminisce is to open up old wounds I tried to leave and bury behind I've lost I've lost too many times I've failed I've failed in society's eyes Fuck them fuck them I'll show them as much mercy as this life has shown me Long lonely nights My thoughts are a mess I've known what I want but what I want I couldn't get Can't tell what day it is sometimes sometimes I sit alone and I cry And I think of all the things that have gone wrong with me in this life Grim loneliness and sorrow thrives in me The seeds of hate have matured at an accelerated rate causing doom to loom Waiting for the moment I decide it's time to die Grim loneliness and sorrow thrives in me The seeds of hate have matured at an accelerated rate causing doom to loom Waiting for the moment I decide it's time to die To reminisce is to open up old wounds I tried to leave and bury behind I try to better myself but the rush and stress of life Seems to have pushed everyone ahead and left me behind I've lost I've lost too many times I've failed I've failed in society's eyes Fuck them fuck them I'll show them as much mercy as this life has shown me Long painful nights My thoughts are a mess My thoughts have become one I want to end it now I want to take all those I hate with me on a journey of pain tonight There won't be any thing you can do about it Cause when I decide it's time it'll be time for all to pay It's the only way the only way for my conscience and soul to rest at ease I belong nowhere Outcast I belong nowhere Outsider