Currently, I'm sober and bothered by everything Still trying to find a connection With anyone willing to befriend. Maybe over coffee or pizza or dms I thought in my 30s things would be different But I'm a loner at heart. Hit a wall, fading early Didn't see it coming, Must've gone too hard in my 20s Off to bed at 10 up at 6, I'm over this How is this any fun for anyone But now I'm having more trouble coping in social settings And I keep digging myself a bigger hole to climb out of This self doubt, and unbalanced mindset I'm over trying, But need to find a better way to assimilate with you Without destroying myself In search for becoming something else. The world seemed nicer when I was in a daze And the future was looking bright Surely I'm still missing something, But nothing has calmed all these racing thoughts yet, So I'm starting to sound apprehensive again