One cut one scar more pain one bruise
Give me all that you got I've got nothing to lose
I need the pain in my veins so but don't ask why
I've gotta destroy myself just to feel alive
The doctors and medicine could never help
Prescribing more problems poisoning the well
I can't Deny my Anger or Bargain for a break
So I'm dealing with Depression in unacceptable ways
Self destruction
I can't escape this confusion
Self destruction
Now it's the only solution
To ease this pain in my mind
Or to leave this all far behind
Self loathing self destructive
Self absorbed with no direction
And it's slowly killing me
No this isn't who I want to be
Much too young too fast too soon
On a never ending bender now I'm on the loose
I'll fade away in my pain no hope in sight
No escape from the grave that I've dug this time
So I'll isolate myself from my family and friends
On a self destructive road I now descend
I can't Deny my Anger or Bargain for a break
So I'm dealing with Depression in unacceptable ways
Self destruction
I can't escape this confusion
Self destruction
Now it's the only solution
To ease this pain in my mind
Or to leave this all far behind
Self loathing self destructive
Self absorbed with no direction
And it's slowly killing me
No this isn't who I want to be
What do you see when you look in the mirror?
Perceptions of yourself only getting clearer?
Then in the end for these sins I'll crash and burn
Pedal to the metal leaning in to the curve