The story of my life And I speak to you No filtered characters to hide behind All the fucked up thoughts that rush in through my brain Will I lose the voice that keeps me sane? And will they see it? I'm running blind here And nothing seems clear I look up to the sky and I find I wonder why Why the hell am I alive and standing here? Ashamed I am afraid That this all will be in vain A burdened road to which the end I'll disappear I can't help but feel this hopeless Vicious pit inside my gut And it makes me question my decisions That I've made while growing up I don't know now (Decisions I have made, have I fucked up?) I don't know how (The future unfolds all I crave is hope) I look up to the sky and I find I wonder why Why the hell am I alive and standing here? Ashamed I am afraid That this all will be in vain A burdened road to which the end I'll disappear I can see it It's in my sights I just gotta reach it Pull it in before I go blind It looks into me Dead in my eyes And suddenly I notice I am terrified I look up to the sky and I find I wonder why Why the hell am I alive and standing here? I look up to the sky and I find I wonder why Why the hell am I alive and standing here? Ashamed I am afraid That this all will be in vain A burdened road to which the end I'll disappear I'm afraid I'll disappear