Deterioration of my cranium and internal organs have been splayed
Here we go! Bring it on
Agitated reactions from all surrounding me
From most nights I don't even recall
I scoff at the thought
You are the one who's overreacting
Everything I say and do, it's in all good fun
So why don't you shut the fuck up and take it with a grain of salt
Intervention
Banishment
Denounced for shenanigans
Tarred and feathered
Mirror reflects, face turns scarlet from embarrassment of my actions
Temporary solution where therin lies the problem
This is all I know, habits enforced
Resistant to change
The time has come to make an alteration
Out of Spite, I Thrive
Conquer infinity
Silence the temptations
Obey the ritual
Persevere no matter what
Anxiety coursing through my veins in place of
The alcohol that once occupied the space
Enough contemplation, pull the trigger
Decision to endure to the other side
Nephalism reveals I live two different lives
One succumbs to desires, the other seeks enlightenment
Never before have I felt this vulnerable or
Determined to prove the naysayers wrong
But it's not for me, it's all for you
No longer will you think of me as a buffoon
I'm dead set on making all feel inadequate
Chronology of my being
Words mean nothing, all action from here
A man is nothing more than what he purposes
I will follow through to the end of perpetration
The question will be answered, are you worth it?
Adherence
Obsession
Praised now for my vigilance
Restored decency
Mirror reflects, face is glowing from consistency of my actions
Temporary solution where therin lies the problem
Explore the unknown, habits reinforced
Willingness to change