Immersed in Austerity
Time has never felt so ephemeral
A new variant of evolution
Aberrant deeds have consumed me
Although, righteousness is perceived
Discipline countermands free will
Virtuous existence
I'm still selfish, even more than before
Ignoring all for a chance to adore
Conflicting thoughts overwhelm me
Ambivalent in the vein
The sloth dissolved, obsessed thoughts spread like a venom
"When I peak this whole town is going to feel it"
Egh
Torn and Scattered
Engulfed by vascular static
The apogee has been reached
Trial complete, I'm still not enough
These months cannot surpass the years
I've reverted back to my true form with desire to stagnate
I could never keep this up
Cannot wash away disdain I hold for myself
I've learned nothing at all
This transformation was all a feeble attempt
To get close to the flame and feel her warmth again
I held my tongue through this whole process
Determined for a chance to access
Reality has it, you could not care less
How many times must I cater for this dissension
Tears fill your eyes, don't you dare
I am the one with the heart that is left Torn and Scattered
Enraptured souls intertwined
Remaining to decay in this space, cursed to see another day
Perpetually we go back to our ways and symbiotically we reanimate
All it takes is to hear her voice, this love it is a drug
Oh, the great lengths traveled just to see you smile
I do not wish to be brash, all I crave is to be mollified
Lifted from your caress
Revealing love in your eyes
Trial complete, I'm still not enough
These months cannot surpass the years
I've reverted back to my true form with desire to stagnate
I could never keep this up
Cannot wash away disdain I hold for myself
I've learned nothing at all
Perhaps, persistence
Comfort in suffering
I now realize that I am nothing more than addictions
In the meantime, I will continue on
Searching for a satisfaction in this reality