To russian Sad thoughts of sad thoughts. My dullness gave me a throat. I feel like I'll break soon- I put my head in the noose. I'm tired of insomnia long I'm tired of my sad poems. I'm tired of seeming normal. I'm tired, I'm tired, I'm tired, I'm tired. There is no power to drink from the bars. But also there are no forces to stop drinking. There are no forces at least for something to hold on My whole world is not like mine, dumb. There was no desire to cry I do not feel alive myself. I feel like I'll break soon I put my head in the noose. When will I stop thinking about death? When will I get rid of myself? I'm a louse quivering or I really dare Kill yourself ... yourself? Oh, my Darkness My Painfull Goddes Oh, my Darkness Oh, my sweet Decadance