I've become a shell that's hiding, hiding from his former self
Appearing as if I'm content but my thoughts are slowly guiding, guiding me to my downfall
Before I knew it, I lost all sense of self control
Another sleepless night with my face in my hands struggling to keep up with the fight
(I want this to end)
Suffering two defeats in a mental war
What a cold world we live in, yet I can't take the heat
Spirits sinking lower and lower
Losing progress and composure
Inner peace is slipping away from me
Severed from life's tranquility
Between myself and my identity, polarity separates it from I
Failing to get a grip on reality
At this point, I don't know who I am anymore
Where do I turn for a remedy when the misery is self inflicted
I need aid but I don't wanna burden
Oh god, I feel so conflicted
That other part of me is vacant, vacant
Lost in the ever black
Without my sense of humanity; how can I truly face these, face these demons on my own as they eat away at my sanity
Go
As I descend, my body hits the floor
Fragile and weak, I fall apart
Tossing, turning, breaking down and weeping
Damned now but was damned from the very start
The path leads backwards from here
Static and shadows appear
Wandering far and astray
Into despair, I decay
Between myself and my identity, polarity separates it from I
Failing to get a grip on reality
At this point, I don't know who I am anymore
Where do I turn for a remedy when the misery is self inflicted
I need aid but don't wanna burden
Oh god, I feel so conflicted
Since when did seasons last for decades at a time
Since when did seasons last for decades at a time
The last place I thought the threat would live is inside my head
Confined by anxiety
Someone please come set me free before I rake my eyes out