I been in a wasteland
Nothing for miles
Demons stay trying to chase man
They're after his smile
And I been holding out that hope that it'll just be a while
Before they settle down
Looking for a way out
I can't pace myself
I been running for days now
But there's still someone else
And I been looking over my shoulder
Thinking this must be hell
Deserted lands look like life's over
I'm back into my shell
Yeah
Over accountability, feel like it's my fault
Ain't nobody been missing me
Niggas swear they care about me and remember me
If that's so maybe I'd do better as a memory
Then no one would see me on my off days
I always knew that I'd have trouble balling
I couldn't fit the status quo it's exhausting
Actin like I could do better in more broad ways
And nowadays like every day is a long day
A big nigga can't keep living off small plates
Death seducing me, devil in Prada lingerie
From the jump knew I couldn't see heaven's walkways
Born from sin, born to sin, and then left to the wilds
The flames burn and there's no love left to cool me down
And still enough somehow to make my mama say she proud
Wanna be the one to make old friends wish they knew me now
Even the ones that thought that I was trash and threw me out
I don't even gotta ask my girl why she choose me now
Big picture was my first perspective I ain't zooming out
I just see wrinkles in the system trying to smooth these out
Niggas that I thought were my dogs done chewed me out
I can't get over it brittle bullets still breaking down
Shrapnel lodged deep in my brain I found
That's why I don't do idols now they just humans
And like all of us if they worth something they gotta prove it
At this point only that's worth it's making music
I can't do nothing else I just can't do it
I can't do nothing else I just can't do it
I can't do nothing else I just can't do it
I can't do nothing else I just can't do it
I can't do nothing else I just can't do it
I can't do nothing else I just can't do shit
I been in a wasteland
Nothing for miles
Demons stay trying to chase man
They're after his smile
And I been holding out that hope that it'll just be a while
Before they settle down