Niggas trying to keep it pushing, I'm back trying to phase in
Tired of putting in maximum work for minimum wage and
I'm playing ball with too many people in different places
Slid to every spot I'm trying to cover all my bases
Broke my controller gaming
So I lost every semblance of control I felt regularly
Tired of scrounging up these scraps man I'm ready to eat
These niggas had me watch in silence with they head in a feast
I'm trying to catch up, red bottle
Been standing for so long my bare feet turned red bottoms
But that's something to be proud of right
I could stand up for myself but I'd still bow all night
Performing for 'em just so I can make it out alright
And I ain't send 'em no average mail I wrote letters
Cause they don't think that I'll succeed less I show cheddar
Instead of being your average male, I broke measures
I don't waste words on deaf ears, I know better
I've been impractically living, practically dying
Passive decisions, thinking all I got is gas and emissions
Yeah back on a mission
Moving past my past in the present cause I've been
Gifted in the moment since I had any presence of mind
Somehow this turned into a lasting obsession of mine
Behind my back, don't know who backing the message
But after actual sessions, feel like I left it all in New York
Future full of chemistry together we could do more
Stopped counting the gray hairs during Senior year
Learned that apathy protects you from that creeping fear
Vision darting point to point been marked by scheming peers
Like bulls I see red out of control like I don't need to steer
My expression's ear to ear don't know the origin
It's telephone
Not used to this attention always been alone
Yeah dreaming bout that place in my career I'll probably never go
But honestly, you never know
Either way I'm set to go