I might not know exactly what I'm doing Exactly why I react in tears Or why it's been years And I still block, unblock, and block you again Or why my chest feels like a million butterflies caged inside Begging for a release of internal lies But I promise I'm trying to figure this out To figure me out This anxiety can be a real bitch sometimes There's a huge gap before the bridge to the other side And I wanna jump Take that leap of faith Pump 10 doses of confidence through my veins, but I know what that means Letting go of you And all that we went through Letting go of guilt, of past, of trauma Rebuild, surpass, and promise No more fixes in the form of beings Complete as one Messy Yet freeing