I'll remember these people for the rest of my life, won't I
Miss you
Do you remember me
Look at me look at you look at you
I can see everything you would do
I don't know I don't know
Nevermind nevermind
Never find never find
Me out there
I'm too scared
Me out there
I'm too scared
Hang onto the past until I can replace it
I drag it behind me but don't ever face it
I do not want anything except what I want
I mold people like they could be sold and then bought
Still holding back every time that I talk to you
This is my will and my spirit is stalking you
I act like you owe me cuz I missed my chances
Seeking houses to rent but got no advances
And what if I'm just so far over my own head
That I cant do anything except die instead
Told me not to put no person on pedestal
My condition serious might be medical
Know college is serious poison a hivemind
No social no talking I'm running out of time
I got only a month until I am kicked out
Of my grave but a brave lonely daisy sticks out
I'll cut out my eye if that's what you ask of me
Wait 'till you talk first I am acting passively
Id love to try loving but that's just above me
Id love to start crying but my eyes been drying
Id love to relate to you but I cant relate
Degrading for days forget language try to mate
Ive learned that living will be harder than dying
I like a good challenge but need to start trying
Miss the days when I was not pining the past ones
Build memories so I die happy on the last one
Miss all my life like zero percent accuracy
Only thing bout my times that's pure immaculacy
I know who you are
You try to hit start
But you always look back
Cuz you always look back
I'm afraid of myself and my mind
I'm afraid to think of what id find
If I thought something different at anytime
I doubt myself telling a stripe from a line
I'm so comfortable sitting in plainness
College or job cuz that's shameless
I was a kid the last time I was happy
I was with them the last time I was happy
I could do this the last time I was happy
I wasn't me the last time I was happy
I'm sick of complaining but I can not stop
Cant buy anymore time please stop with the restock
Scared of all of the time that I wasted
Trying to take me, I aim and I mace it
I miss the good times and I miss all those people
Hole in my heart getting bigger like a sinkhole
Taken away from you without hearing your say
Why couldn't I spend just one more day
You value whats behind you the golden shadow
Walk in circles chasing it like you got only one paddle
Rotating cuz all day the sun is going around you
You're the center of the universe but no one has found you
Hindsight dividing right into one
Away from your memories you cant ever run
Face back from the light
So you cant see your present blight
We can try with all our might