I feel blinded by the sun
I feel warm and alarmed
I've lived so long under the shade
Of a comfortable cloudy sky
And now I'm ready to throw it all away
I tripped over all the things I've said
And now I'm suddenly indebted
I thought it more than it ever was
And I gave it everything which wasn't much more than anything at all
Was it ever really there
Will it ever stick around for longer than this
Was it ever really there
(I woke up crying / at the thought of us smiling)
I've been fooled like this before
Now I'm doubting in anything more
It always starts out just the same
So how do you believe in anything enough to know that it'll never change
Was it ever really there
Will it ever stick around for longer than this
Was it ever really there
I woke up crying
At the thought of us smiling
I've grown tired of us lying to ourselves that this is all there is
But with that said love
I'm scared to death of
Messing this whole thing up
Besides I'm not sure of anything
If I could just hold you one more time tonight
It might help me with what I'm trying to decide
And I'll pretend that I'll be different
With the hopes that I'll be different
Because it'll always be different this time.
I woke up crying
At the thought of us smiling
I've grown tired of this lying to you
But with that said love
I'm scared to death of
Messing this whole thing up
Besides I'm not anything (oh)