In the morning I awoke to find you gone What in the darkness Holds the guilt above my heart The new season I took risks to find the truth A hope for someone else Some other than myself I felt the rain I sensed my restraint I played pretend to fit your world I fought myself to be your whole But all along I'd always known in time that I would lose my hold In the turning Self defeat begins the call Your renewing Convincing me of all my faults When I withdrew your comfort grew So surely I must be the fool If loves a feeling that can bloom, then why can't I give that to you I know that I'm much more reserved It makes you scared, It leaves you hurt A faithful hand is never worth the pain that you never deserved I cut you down to keep control I let stillness consume your soul When all you wanted was a home I let you suffer through the cold