Am I supposed to feel okay? I spent the day alone, this year on your birthday 'Cause it's been so long and I don't feel any different And the abyss, it haunts tonight And I'm afraid I'm defined by it Cause It's not going anywhere Will I ever make peace with this? As I'm waiting for the earth to swallow me up I'm feeling older now It's been a long, lonely way down As I'm hanging by a frayed thread of light, it burns I'm sinking lower now And I'm afraid that it won't follow me down (Won't follow me down) But still, I ache for better days Though I spend most of my nights awake Staring at the ceiling Tracing lines to find my way To the light on the window pane It reflects and lights the frame And locks my pain away So it can stay another day In its hiding place, the only thing I can't face As I'm waiting for the earth to swallow me up I'm feeling older now It's been a long, lonely way down As I'm hanging by a frayed thread of light, it burns I'm sinking lower now And I'm afraid that it won't follow me down (Won't follow me down) There's comfort in the fact that we share a name Like part of you's with me in this worn-down state But sometimes the thought can't stop the ache But sometimes, it can't stop this