The party was over before I even arrived Feels like I'm not even here So I just spend all my time Watching it pass by Barely even thinking at all Still I don't wanna be alone now I wish that you'd call Even if it's only so I can leave This place is killing me I'm desperate and I wanna believe It'll get easier But I can't change how I feel inside Despite how hard I try I know I should be feeling alive But all I really feel is empty Staring at the sky Praying for rain So I can feel something Something to explain Funny how I can go from feeling so much to nothing at all I still get a rush when you call I spend my time trying to fight feelings And trying to feel others Tired of seeing grey in a world full of colour And I wonder what it's like to be free From the uncertainty To really feel it all naturally It's who I wanna be But I can't change how I feel inside Despite how hard I try I know I should be feeling alive But all I really feel is empty Staring at the sky Praying for rain So I can feel something Something to explain The way that I've been lately I'll pursue the pain Anything to make me Feel alive again