You know it's nothing personal and I'm making a change although it's not that bad
You know it's something hard to kick and I'm feeling a bit let down
You know what's best, I choose the worst
Alone again, I swear I'm cursed
I must be cursed
All I know
That year was so long
How am I supposed to be here? How am I supposed to grow?
I'm just feeling so lost
I'm clearly just lost
You know it's nothing personal and I'm bleeding all out, you know it's not that bad
This year was something hard for me and I know that you're drinking again
Breaking off the motion casts a curse
Im just another victim to disease
Clearly there is something that you want, brace for the moment it depletes you at once
That year was so long
How am I supposed to be here? How am I supposed to grow?
I'm just feeling so lost
At midnight I'm tossing and turning
These bones are just nervous, so
So Wrong
Hostile hands at my throat, anxious and alone
Fuck this scene, I don't think you know
How am I supposed to be here?
How am I supposed to go on to a better life through bitter days?
Crushing medication just to find the feeling, it's so wrong
And when the moment comes undone, find a reason to believe
Clearly there is something left to grow, it's so bad