I been shaking in my sleep Eyes wide shut I been shaking in my sleep I been shaking in my sleep (Shaking in my sleep) Tossing turning tryna find peace (tossing turning, find peace) My demons kill me in my dreams (Kill me in my dreams) I don't know who I can believe (I dont know who to believe) I been living outta bag so all my shirts are wrinkled I been living off a tab still ain't pay yet Imma pay my dues one day I feel internally in debt to those who show respect And those who broke they neck for me Posed a threat for me, wrote a check for me Rolled the sess lowered stressed for me 18 living of off 19th ave Where the crews carry tools and don't know they dad So we all lost Mothers call but we keep our phones off Say the world is yours but I wonder what the world costs Freedom ain't free They gave us 9-5s, now we hate our weeks That's some shit I could not survive thru Rather keep an open mind why deny truth I'm the introvert my nature is to nurture you I'm a homebody who is homeless I been going thru it yea I was too young when my grandma died No lil kid wants see their mama crying and she lying to my eyes Saying she's alright, knowing damn well she's been weeping every night Cuz the cancer took her bladder after that it took her soul Mama crying in the kitchen, flooding up our home My biggest fear to this day (What?) Being like my father (Why?) Sociopath (What else?) Selfish ass dad I was numbing all the pain - inflicting trauma in my brain I sat ponder on these thangs Driving in the rain Across the country going to see my nephew he's 6 months Ill do my best to lead the way and keep him safe Know tha gods always with you everyday It's just fate - i just needa calm down Needa let my guard down No one to call now i run but fall down I been shaking in my sleep (Shaking in my sleep) Tossing turning tryna find peace (Tossing turning, find peace) My demons kill me in my dreams (Kill me in my dreams) I don't know who I can believe (I dont know who to believe)