Another notch in your belt, a cog in the clock
So hard on myself, when will these feelings ever stop?
All these fucking days are starting to feel the same
Watch the sun rise over and over and over again
Every flaw, every mistake, every self conscious thought I create
It always just makes me stray, from the faith that I made
Honestly, timelessly
Try to open my mind and see
The person I really am
But I've been searching for days on end
Who will save me
When I'm running in the dark
No more waiting
For myself to fall apart
I've been counting down the days til you finally see
I'm better off here without you anyway
I'll find my way on my own
I've been waiting so long
To break free from my shell
And I've been waiting so long
To walk free from my hell
And I'm still searching for the signs
So much for second chances
Take a step back and take a glimpse
At what you blindly left behind
I'm not some failure by design
If you wanted to see, who I can be
It's not that easy
You thought you set me free
But you cut me deep
I've been explaining for days
I don't feel right in this place anymore
But I can't find the words to say
To express, to be heard, to remind you
Of a time when you said that you'd be there
But now I'm all alone at my worst
Falling, falling faster
Sinking deeper
To feel closer to you
Can you see it now
Self abusive to myself
I'll scream it loud
So addicted to this hell I call my own
There's no where quite like home
Can you see it now
Self abusive to myself
A cry for help
So addicted to this hell I call my own
There's nothing quite like home
Here I lie and rest
In fear I dream
In fear I sleep
In fear I dream
Of lies made up in my sleep