Well I'm broke
Twenty-four years old and still alone
Addicted to caffeine and letting go
Of everyone that gets to close
I'm a joke
Tryna stay consistent with my phone
Nervously rehearsing for a post
About a song that I just wrote
In hopes that
That someday I might change
Won't always talk to fill the space
Maybe being authentic won't feel fake
And I could honestly say that
The real me is here to stay
I don't know
If I'll ever really come out of this low place
I've been writing, I've been running
I guess just I keep finding new ways to cope
Hell it's a joke
Just tryna stay relevant and woke
I'm anxiously reading my own horoscope
I just want to know where to go from here
In hopes that
That someday I might change
Won't always talk to fill the space
Maybe being authentic won't feel fake
And I could honestly say that
The real me is here to stay
I keep staying' up all night tryna force myself to close my eyes
But nothing ever works on my restless mind
Especially when it gets worse on sober nights
Stuck awake here wondering why
Getting no sleep is my kryptonite
I think I'm a masochist but I think I'm a lie
Still smile at the end of the night pretending im fine
Whenever my friends ask me how's your life
Truth is I think we all think about giving up sometimes
Truth is I worry so much I forget how to socialize
Truth is I wish that I could just dismiss all the people that made me feel like shit
But I can't
But pain is perspective
Heartache is a lesson
Money might just be a comedic sense of direction
I'm pretty sure unconditional love might be subjective
Cause eventually we all end up with a form of conditional depression
No way I'm alone I think being fucked up might just be relevant
But then again I'm only guessing
That someday I might change
Won't always talk to fill the space
Maybe being authentic won't feel fake
And I could honestly say that
The real me is here to stay
That someday I might change
Won't always talk to fill the space
Maybe being authentic won't feel fake
And I could honestly say that
The real me is here to stay