Sick of being sorry, sick of walking away Been loyal to myself but became a slave A radioactive earthquake Mind fucked for fuck's sake Plastic tissues, a puppet made of clay Sick of being afraid, sick of being so brave I've been convincin' myself it's two-way A hidden unlovable criminal A not reversible antidote A T-bone steak? A snowflake? I never asked to be born Look up in the sky tryna hold back the tears outta my eyes Wishin' die or ride but I need more than that, not losing fight Colliding into black like a duck to water crime with an alibi Write and overwrite never satisfied, black and blue hearin' gunfight Home's too far away (Never satisfied, never satisfied, never satisfied) Home's too far away (Never satisfied, never satisfied, never satisfied) Sick of bein' looked down and respondin' so fake Are horses born to be ridden? Y'all human snake A cornea gallbladder milkshake Shinin' diamonds on your shortcake Mind fucked for fuck's sake Sickenin' feelin' that shockwave It's okay that I don't, I don't wanna feel okay Spice it up this time, I'm pickin' up my pace I'm nothing like the person my family want me to portray Look at me now I'm fearless cuz I've been afraid If I could see the future, would I still want to be here? Does fire have a smell itself? What's the taste of blood? Nobody else? I'm not happy, I don't really want to be Fair and square, what do I care? Got way more bandaids in my pocket I'm not happy, I don't really want to be I don't really want to be I don't really want to be I don't really want to be I don't really want to be I don't really want to be I don't really want to be I never Wishin' die or ride Wishin' die or ride Wishin' die or ride Wishin' die or ride but I need more than that Colliding into black like a duck to water crime with an alibi