I see you standing in the doorway looking out Did someone tell you? How do you always know when I've arrived? I try casually play it cool as I approach the steps up to meet you But there's no hiding how much time's gone by There's no way to replace All the years gone to waste I wrestle tears into a smile on my face I'm hiding behind the role I play for you but it's all for show The truth is I've never been so low I'm lying to everyone It's killing me, what will I become If I can't live with the things I've done? She says, "I can't believe your here, you never told me you were near Never thought you'd reappear I know your sister will be glad you're back" She says, "I think about the night you left and all the things I said Should've held you close instead You're nothing like your father, you know that" There's no way to replace All the year's gone to waste I tell you not to worry everything's ok I'm hiding behind the role I play for you but it's all for show The truth is I've never been so low I'm lying to everyone It's killing me, what will I become If I can't live with the things I've done? I hear you running up the stairway, calling out, "Hey mom, who is it?" You freeze in place when you see it's me I try to say hello but I dunno why I can't seem to speak Not the kid you used to be I guess I lost you in a memory There's no way to replace All the year's gone to waste I don't deserve to feel of the warmth of your embrace I'm hiding behind the role I play for you but it's all for show The truth is I've never been so low I'm lying to everyone It's killing me, what will I become If I can't live with the things I've done?