If you prescribe me a lobotomy
Then maybe everything in front of me
Will start to make some sense one of these days
Everything that I see is black and gray
I'm thinking about how times are changing, rearranging
Giving a girl like me a pathway in
You'd think that it'd make it easier for me to make it
Even with the complexion of my skin
I'm close to giving up on any possibility
That things will be alright
It seems like I don't have it in me
It's not in me
I'm stranded in this fire burning all around me
All around me
All these worries of the future
Are mixing with the shames, ghosts of my past
I'm reopening my sutures, I need to ask
Why everything I see is gray and black
The air inside my lungs is burning, I am learning
The ground beneath my feet is crumbling, I am struggling
I'm close to giving up on any possibility
That things will be alright
It seems like I don't have it in me
It's not in me
I'm stranded in this fire burning all around me
All around me
Every day my cheeks get more hollow
And in the mirror, my eyes are sunken in
I'm resisting one more bottle
I can't believe the world crawled under my skin
I'll take the memories
And I'll turn them all to ash
To forget about the possibilities
I'll never seem to get back
Fuck!
Won't let myself give up (I won't let myself)
The slightest possibility
That things will be alright (things will be alright)
I've gotta somehow find it in me
Somewhere in me
In spite of all the oceans rising all around me
All around me