I'm alive I'm alive ♪ To the existential dread I let run through my head The truth is that you hurt me for so long And here's my celebration song I know that years from now When my final flame runs out I'll be a grain of sand Running through a stranger's hand But right now ♪ I'm alive I'm alive I'm alive, I lived to see today I lost so much along the way And that's fine 'Cause I'm alive I've been so hurt for so long I've been so hurt for so long I've been so hurt for so long I've been so hurt for so long Well, I'm done (I've been so hurt for so long) Trying to run (I've been so hurt for so long) From all the things that make me feel alive (I've been so hurt for so long) For fear that I might just catch fire (I've been so hurt for so long) 'Cause I've earned A couple days amongst the sun God knows I've more than paid my dues For all the months that I didn't wanna live through The sleepless nights The bloodshot eyes This blissful pain contextualized I went to death's door, he let me inside But for all my want He couldn't look me in the eyes, I I've been so hurt for so long