I like to put in effort when I write People need to see the growth I wanna give you the best so that It's only up from here onward Powerless to change the past Face the facts, that's how it is Mistakes, regrets- ain't proud of them How I can make amends the daily question Nighttime fade to black And then awake to the same obsession, in a vague depression Now and then pain'll pass I make it last to retain painful lessons I'm battling the hate for self with ways to help my fellow man By that I mean the whole planet Please conceive man as an alchemist, for this rap at least Rapidly realizin I have to shift this animus to anima Without the masks of aliases All animates must adapt again and again and again But balancin- I been bad at this as calculus since I was a kid Whatever bout I'm in, I'm adamant about it And in and out of it again, again, again, again Steady as a better friend (would be) Wish I never said depend (on me) Til the bitter end I keep Wonderin when the innocence left And where the hell it went I got Eddie Vedder in my head Wanna go Alexander Supertramp But I won't do the fam like that I'm kept in check knowing deeply This life is bigger than your own experience Don't believe me yet? Hope sincerely you Don't experiment; no one need to go out that way Easy for me to say, though My route been about half paved I know everybody pay the toll, though Even the meter maid, yeah Powerless to cease the change I know it'll never be the same So I say auf Wiedersehen And grieve all the same as I Seize the day Carpe Diem The life It's so crazy, Robin Wow Wow Took a while for me to see The truth is hidden deep The pain I had to grieve It was me that I couldn't be Had to fake, it got hard to breathe Swear the stars felt far to reach Now I'm up and the people say Yet they don't know what I feel Was so broke, used to dress to kill It was confidence that I lacked See, the problem stems right back Send my stems to Rob and now we on a track Some shit that I would manifest Mother told me do your best See my dreams and I press the bench There's some weight on my shoulders Cuz I'm getting wiser before I get older Mistakes that I made I would regret But now that I know I've been chosen I'm spendin time with the fam, and it's just for a moment I needed my closure Before you know it it's over Problems I had with my dad Cuz he still be drinkin with friends of our fam And I just be smokin I'm lost, out of focus Still, I know where I'm goin I just needed a moment Yeah I needed my closure But it's never over I gotta keep goin I'm only gettin older I'm happy I know ya But me, I'm a loner I gotta keep goin Everything'll be kosher