Oh no Yeah OK Peace sign raised high to my school life I can barely pay mind to my true life Rules ain't loose, they tight as my shoes tied Can't scoot wide of 'em, try as a fool might I bend 'em, but then just end up bendin' backwards And then my back hurts, and bad words Come tumblin' out my foul mouth, wish I could bow out Someone kick me a roundhouse ticket to down for the count I'm down and out, and I don't wanna stick around For the round I'm about to fight Heard the same bells several thousand times That's the sound of time Which is out of my control. How could I withhold lies I'm not even allowed to lie my soul down for a rest Don't matter how many hours I've slept It never has the power to cleanse me Tensin' my body, neck is quite knotty Bet that I'm not breathin' properly And you're probably correct, guess ya got me I don't wanna have to pretend that I'm not me I don't wanna have to text an apology After I left your last messages all on read That defeats the purpose The constant connection is driving me kinda insane Woulda said that I'm sorry If we ever actually interacted in person Instead of just on these threads when we on-screen Every passing second will never ever return again So why would you waste a single one On the small talk we make on digital Makes no sense to me, but then again it seems I'm never really fittin' in with sheep And that's fine with me Is it alright with you If I usually decide to choose Solitude over devotin' my time to doin' What in my view's kinda stupid No offense None taken here If you think I'm weird And feel inclined to start stayin' clear You won't hear any complaints I will be in my creative sphere if you need me Yeah I will be in my creative sphere if you need me So don't worry if you don't see me Nah You know where to find me if you need me And don't hesitate to if need be It's been a minute since the beginning Then again, it can depend on if it exists in the first place What if I got in your face Would you respond or turn away Wait, this ain't the me that I'm used to You would agree it's unusual, wouldn't you Hold up Why should I remain in the same lane, playing blame games When I wanna make gains and create change Head full of questions, neck full of stress Every damn inch of my body's invested Coulda, woulda, shoulda picked a million different roads But I chose this one, so I own its uphills as much as its mole hills One of these days I'm gonna pay off all my dues Layin' off the news tryna stay up on my mood Takin' a brush and choosing to paint another view Pain comes and it goes, often with both cons and pros All that I know is you're not in control of a lot of it But you can opt to get positive out of the holes In other words, all that's gold don't glitter Most of it's hidden where you don't consider Lookin' life in the face, I am Lemme face my damn time-wastin' tendencies Now, not a single minute later It isn't debatable, I'm really finished waitin' But even as I say that, I hear the playback Playing in the back of my head, and it say that I wake up wanting to go back to sleep I was up late tallying the blackened sheep Tryna get an estimate of how many would rather Be a bit different than following the mainstream Doin' exactly the same thing Wonderin', 'Is that me or maybe any one of the other ones' It's not easy straying from the lamb herd Even deviation has a standard But answer me this Why is it so damn scary to mix up or vary the shit That makes us divisible as individuals Apart from the visible physical Don't get me wrong, I'm all about the One Love philosophy But each one of us got some unique-ass characteristics We tend to keep hidden for fear that we never could fit in with them It's terribly sad we'd apparently Rather be plastic than cherish our differences, when I dare to profess they're the very essence Of what makes us so interesting Said it's terribly sad we'd apparently Rather be plastic than cherish our differences, when I dare to profess they're the very essence Of what makes us so interesting