Feel like i been up for too long Demons tryna tell me do wrong Looking dirty like a cube bong Boss fight im feeling too strong People got my brain feeling lesser Shouldve killed myself up in the desert Everyday surrounded by the pressure I will not submit to you, never My therapist made me feel worse Medications make my brain hurt Now im not on even playing turf Wanna put myself under the dirt I was good until i fucking relapsed Yeah i changed but they would never see that I never asked to fucking be sad Cuz of anxiety i gotta react All the stress been fucking me up Ion like weed fuck a re-up I dont like me i fucking need love Fuck hygiene i need to clean up I dont even wanna get out of bed I wanna put a bullet in my head Somedays i think im better off dead And fuck all of these meds I cant even say whats in my brain Waking up and every day the same Ultimately who is there to blame Me cuz i will never ever change