Did I fall away from God? Or did he fall away from me? I internalized myself And became all I chose not to be It's a cascade of doubt That runs my vision It's a moment of self That makes the division I could've turned back And went the other way But my gut told me Where the cards needed to lay It's a second of relief It's the gun to my teeth It's an underlying hum There isn't a shroud of doubt That I deserve this I'm made of these things And now they become my purpose I moved every way I could Toed every single line The moments that made me Are growing in my spine ♪ You'll take, 'til these last seconds I'll wait for God to answer every damn question If he made me, why did I have to be like this? (Be like this?) The pain, it's in every fucking lesson I'll hold this weight till the very last message If he made me, why did I have to be like this? (Be like this?) I'm stuck with myself and that's never been enough I'm looking for a way out and I'm losing touch They never listened Always had a condition They never listened Always had a condition They never listened Always had a condition They never listened Always had a condition It's just an underlying hum It's just an underlying hum