It be late night when I battle demons See their shadow creeping Climb my way up hear the ladder creaking Cus they shake it from under, it's mad deceiving Had me sad and weeping cus they told me they'd hold it down for me firm In the ground like a worm Disrespected me and boundaries hurt You was frowning when I was announcing my terms I was down in the dirt, help me god I'm constantly winning but felt the loss I'm dodging my dinner my health at cost So I'm lost and I'm in a whole melting pot By myself a lot, they only put in effort when you mad yo Non-reciprocation messing with me bad tho You don't think about me how I think about you And it turned me to a pessimistic asshole I won't mention names but you know already And I'll write bout the pain cus you know I'm petty It's all in my brain and its loaded heavy So I'm more than ready to just go confetti And just pop shit Oh, its too much should I stop it? You dont give a fuck till I'm crossed You won't give a fuck till I've lost it Pain girl you gimme pain Boy you gimme pain I manoeuvre thru the rain Pain girl you gimme pain Boy you gimme pain I manoeuvre thru the rain Pain girl you gimme pain Boy you gimme pain I manoeuvre thru the rain Pain girl you gimme pain Boy you gimme pain I manoeuvre thru the rain I won't mention names but you know already And I'll write bout the pain cus you know I'm petty It's all in my brain and its loaded heavy So I'm more than ready to just go confetti And just pop shit Oh, it's too much should I stop it? You don't give a fuck till I'm crossed You won't give a fuck till I've lost it