As far as this goes
My heart made of stone
Cus the trauma that i been thru made it harden
And cold
I departed my soul and watched it fly away
The rotten shit that I've seen, it made my eyes decay
So lemme kindly say
Man don't be blind today
Or tomorrow cus you'll fall and cus you'll find your way
To disappointment, my shit on point when I write my pain
I hit a joint, you at dick appointment you ride for fame
So I can't fuck with you bitches
My trust is diminished
The stuff that I've written in my note pad
It shows i'm stuck in my vision and my own madness
And the toughness Ive hidden under old trash
But now the growth at it, and I can laugh at the old me
I laugh uncontrollably from packets of old weed
The sadness was showing
I battled it all week
I stay meditating till I've mastered my own peace
In my mind with you
We'll restart again
Touch the sky with you
Reach the stars again
Grew up being asian im expected to get A plus
School was to enslave me man these lessons had me chained up
Affection deprivation and obsession made me crave touch
The net indoctrination, 15 seconds got us brainwashed
Told us to embrace it, but that be the same ones
Who made fun of our accents, and laughed where I came from
The past had my brain numb, traumatic the pain was
They acted like snakes now they grapple to gain trust
Its passed almost 8 months, since i met Rudyna, i love them
Been a fiend for the cuddles, got every reason to want it
On the day i first met you, you had my speech full of stutter
And now u greeted my mother, so we gon be us forever
Nowadays i be rambling, money wasted, no gambling
Tryna chase what i cant, im stuck in a maze I cant handle,
It got me praying like mantis, help me escape all this madness
They tell me god is an artist, i put my face on the canvas