What's the reason for us breathing?
Every day repeating til the plot stops at the end
Entertain time by telling yourself that you can take it
Til you take a look at what you've done and see how much you've wasted
Getting wasted like I'm twenty one
Been so many places, I forget just where I'm coming from
Trying to get to where I'm going, but I'm just a ghost in the attic
Floating where no one can see me, in the cold and the static
Like a satellite, slowly spinning steadily
Lonelier than Sputnik until I am the dead debris
Inside my head, I'm free... Within my body, I'm trapped
I try to fight the urge of feeling like the odds have been stacked
Standing up against the giants while I'm kissing their feet
First chance I get, I'm cutting that achilles they keep
I keep keeping everything I feel inside of me
Dwelling in depression, overdosing on anxiety
Tirelessly tearing out my innards with a pen and a promise
Might not be the most amazing emcee, but at least I'm honest
My sonnets are filled with sermons that are seeking a savior
It feels like I'm touching God when I speak to the paper
And I plan for the worst, but still I hope for the best
With that nausea and discontent controlling my chest
I can't believe how truly far off I am still
Sales got me stuck, stationary like a windmill
I ain't going nowhere, I got my pride in my pocket
Got my dreams in a pipe, light it and fly like a rocket
And eventually, it's either gonna burn out or blow up
Whatever's bound to be is gonna happen, so there's no rush
It's flying by like, right beside my eyesight
Right outside my reach, I'm gonna get it when the time's right
The moment that you notice what you have is when it's gone
So take a look around and count your blessings til your calm
I got this bomb inside my belly
Burning slow, I need to suffocate what isn't healthy
I'm holding hands with horrible hereditary tendencies
That tend to tense up whenever talks turn up intensity
I turn it down though... I know we can't agree on everything
So switch the subject, the mood starts settling
It's okay now, cannot say that it always was
Until I learned that every disagreement can be solved with love
And understanding, so I stand upon the foundation my parents built
Analyze the cracks until I'm ready and prepared to fill
Every little gap that ever led to flooded basements
Forcing us to move away from troubled waters that we bathed in
Boat's still floating though... Even when the oceans grow
Never will it overflow, keep rowing til the oak is broke
I broke down the first time I saw my father snap
Finding out, years later, how much weight he had upon his back
I understand him now, in fact, I'm pretty similar
In fact, I'm pretty proud to say that times are getting simpler
The same surroundings with a different lens to look through
No matter what you see, if you can see, then it's a good view
A funeral and baby shower happening the same day
Goes to show there's balance, so embrace the way the change sways
I'm still swinging like a pendulum inside a pit
Looking for a hand to pull me out of it before I slip
I'm pretty certain that I'll finally find my footing
For now, I'll just keep pulling out what's pushing
I ain't going nowhere, I got my pride in my pocket
Got my dreams in a pipe, light it and fly like a rocket
And eventually it's either gonna burn out or blow up
Whatever's bound to be is gonna happen, so there's no rush
It's flying by like, right beside my eyesight
Right outside my reach, I'm gonna get it when the time's right
The moment that you notice what you have is when it's gone
So I take a look around and count my blessings... I'm calm