Everything on my back...
Let me just take that, take that, running so fast, can't find home if you don't roam
And I'm spinning quickly out of control, so I can't see straight at the signs that are shown
See me shaking uncontrollably, so cold, so cold, I don't really wanna be anywhere
Waking up in the wrong place at the wrong time, catatonic on the couch and I'm just sitting there
See I want that life, gotta pay that price, if you want greatness, gotta take it
But it takes too long and it's too hard and I can't hold on long enough to make it
And I make my choices... And I'm looking at the past and I can't avoid it
While the void in my heart is employed by the dark that describes everything as so pointless
At point blank range, I can look right back at the person that appears in a mirror
And I might look so long at the reflection cause I can't tell if I'm still here
Look at those hands, study those lines, put it to the face, let it feel that flesh
Now I'm gonna force myself just to walk outside and decide what I gotta do next
With the whole world on my back...
Walking that sidewalk, letting that mind talk until everything disappears
Open those eyes now, wishing I could ride out, but I'm staying put and I'm still right here
Bound to the ground like a statue, stuck in the same place that I can't seem to shake off
So I look around real quick, and I'm thankful that I'm still here, even when I stay lost
My thoughts are plagued with paranoia rushing through my veins
When all I do is look at who I was and see how much has changed
Everything is growing, we're so far away from dying
Until you look into the eyes of mothers when they're crying
I got demons that I fight and I got faith I can't restore
I'm just hoping when I leave, I'll have a place on Heaven's floor
Put me in a corner, I'll be quiet, I ain't trying to bother you
I'm just asking why you can't appear like dead beat fathers do
Every day is an obstacle... Anything is possible
Everybody's watching you so please appear unstoppable
I do what I gotta do to make sure that I maintain
Against my every whim that's going crazy just to stay sane
I got the whole world on my back...
Running so fast, can't find home, look back and it might break everything that you've built
And I might break down soon but there ain't no room for anybody that wants to be still
Standing on stilts, they can see you
But they can't beat you cause they cannot reach you
But you reap what you sow when they see what you hold and you know everybody wanna eat too
Fuck that, they don't need you... We don't need them... Look around, that's all that you need
Got myself and me, got my family, got Nick Arcade, that's a damn good beat
Trying to pass on me, trying to pass on us?
That's a bad idea, homie done fucked up
Ain't no luck when you do what you love
Just build from the bottom til the ceilings bust
Crush anything in your way
Gone for tomorrow, but I'm here for today
So I'm gonna kill this shit til the day I die, and I may not rise from the ground I lay
Walk around on me, I don't really care
I'ma fertilize something, somewhere
See I'm all grown up, can't shake what I trust
Can't leave now, I gotta stay for the rush
Bills on deck, can't pay for the bus
Groceries gone, can't pay for some lunch
What the fuck? Been working that fifty
Hours a week, every shift that they give me
Rhymes like weight, been lifting and lifting
Bench press poems til I'm pushing a Bentley
Can't break me bitch, I ain't bending
Been doing this, the beginning is ending
Any means, anyway, anyhow
I'ma do what it takes til I'm taking a bow
With the chills on my neck as I'm facing the crowd
Mean what I say, so I'm saying it loud
It's about time everything is in place
Patiently waiting or wasting away?
Growing or going? I know that I'm focused
I'm fucking determined to make it, okay?
OK, bright lights on deck
Must not sleep, all night, no rest
Live life live, won't be no death
A soul fulfilled doesn't leave cold flesh