We were talking about making new songs last week
But last week was like 8 years it's funny how time sneaks
Rhymes compete I was blind from this seat
It took a punch in the face to teach my ego defeat
But here I am, back on my chucks I'm running up
We said we would make it with this rap shit and my time ain't up
This ain't no pop shit or weird shit its no vet shit or rookie shit
This some fuck Sal's pizza shop breaking windows on some Mookie shit
We here we been here, 10 years bad luck but we didn't break a mirror
This ain't bad luck, this is destiny, the mirror's a window its so clear
I've written poems, I've written articles but never suicide notes
I've received death threats but threw them out the capsized boat
Here we are swimming, the future's still grinning
Last show we did AwareNess was in the background the bass had me spinning
The numb from a show still feels the same like when we were in high school
Music was my true inspiration, meeting other artists my true education
Self-expression, speaking out my truest lesson
Forgiveness will be my final lesson, until then that punch to my face was a blessing
Guns to our face we threw rocks on 38th
My car window got broke, the cops came but we escaped
Thoughts from an adolescent, depressed with no anti-depressants
Just a notebook, just a pen, and a flow that was aggressive
Face covered in acne, MC Pepperoni
Lungs kept popping, I was pot washing, out the hospital and bony
Perfected the craft, Points used to make me laugh
This was before they imprisoned half the lab
When I got arrested my mom paid the fines
I got a job and paid her back with money that was mine
I'm here cause somebody loved me they put no one else above me
I'm just trying to show that to someone else who's life's been ugly
Life got real, it's funny how time steals
I look in the mirror I touch my face but can't feel
Some way down there
I was running down this road, this road
Some way out there
I've been looking for a golden soul
You can cage the singer but you can't cage the song
This is for Robert, man we love you stay strong
I spit these bars to break yours, I hate yours
I pray yours, break down, I'm faithful, I'm hopeful not hateful
Close your eyes and float through the city, I see you in the astral come fly with me
You hand me a pen it's made out of quartz you tell me love's worth more than a Porsche
You tell me to write and fight these feelings, meditate and levitate to the ceiling
You say burn some sage when you're up on stage, use your anger, recycle your rage
Compost all your anger, use it for your garden
Water your seeds with gratefulness, forgive and never pardon
Messed up people mess up, too many wolves are playing dress up
With rent they wanna stress us, with debt I'm playing catch up
The studio's my confession booth, AwareNess' beats bless us
The sidewalks a scantron the state just wants to test us
Each verse is like a diary, books lit a fire in me
From Baldwin to Conrad to Hooks they inspire me
Speak to the beat like a therapist, we all know how rare that is
My heart's my ghost writer, vulnerability's where the marriage is
I'm anti past I'm anti future I'm anti now I'm pro void
Cause i just want to exist somewhere, are we all droids?
I'm not saving hip hop it saved me
Then it took all my money and gave me a pile of maybes
But I'm an alchemist I could turn a probably into a positive
Words are magic that's why you have to spell to make oxygen
We all have wounds and if you're breathing they're healing
Who cares what they think, guilt is another word for stealing
Some would rather feel pain than nothing at all
I cried when I read that painted on a wall