I got older, but never grew up
Faced facts that life's meant to screw up
We drank liquor, till I threw up
I found a sobering closure in key bumps
Gimme dirty looks or a stick of gum
Rearrange my two left thumbs
If it could bring me peace like summer sun
Then cut my off and hide my tongue
Cuz my heart
Ain't as numb as my nose
Been hustlin my fingers to pay for my toes
But that's just the story and that's how it goes
Till glocks meet my lips and death finally comes to the door
To save me from
All these little thoughts I've been thinkin' up
Pour a lil' sip of propane to wake me up
The crucifixion can't clean my mouth
Bound to catch a case in this shitty town
I'm La-La-listening now
I won't stop til' I cut another, or I cut it out
I've been thinkin' now
Maybe it's permanent
Cuz' I don't ever make amends
It's just something I adore
And I can't get out of this hell I'm in
Cuz' I don't ever make amends
It's just something I can't afford
I'm holding on by the whites of my eyes
Begging for white lights
Or maybe just white lines window down
I'm the deer in the headlight afraid of the night sky
Huntington's in sight
I fell in love with the love of the game
So sick and ashamed of myself every time
I'm hittin' the play
Matter of fact, baby
Gimme' a day
To plan my funeral before I kick a round in my brain
I've been thinkin' now
Maybe it's permanent
Cuz' I don't ever make amends
It's just something I adore
I'm just the downer with the dimebag
It never mattered anyway
I'm just the downer with the dimebag
It never mattered anyway
I've been thinkin' now
Maybe it's permanent
Cuz' I don't ever make amends
It's just something I adore
And I can't get out
Of this little hell I'm in
Cuz' I don't ever make amends
It's just something I can't afford