Hey mama, there's a lot of bad things I did
Dear father, I came here to repent
Hey brother, clear across the world
I wish I would've taught you things
I wish I would've talked to you more
While examining my worth
I weigh the damage and the hurt
I light a candle in the church
And let it stand for my rebirth
I found my roots are only useful when theyre planted in the dirt
I find the harvest only fruitful when i let the sun in first
But its been dark, dark
Colder than my heart, heart
Living on the lakeshore surely played a part
Taking all the anguish and I turn it into art
Like different shade of gray for every string on my guitar
(But I'm adding color)
Instead of deflecting all the guilt and indiscretion
I been shifting my perspective in an uplifting direction
I won't water down the message you can swallow or reject it
Its been hard enough to garner all the strength to just to project it
I won't waste another second stirring being that person non grata
Cause it's been tragic but I'll turn it all to magic, tada
I was a sheep but now I seek to be the shepherd
Ima head to greener pastures, it hasn't been a pleasure
When the rubbers on the road
This introspection got me emptying my soul
All my attention shifts to maintaining control
Lots of temptation almost everywhere we go
And its no different at home
So I keep it moving, sick of feeling zooted
Tired of thinkin up excuses, wild and foolish, getting ruined
I'm improving, im reverting back to learning like a student
Im returning to a person, back to hurting like a human, ya
There's a booming thunder in the wonder of discovering myself
I been encumbered with the blunders and the burden of my belt
Its not alluring when maturing at the rate of a snail
But I"m happy that I lived to tell the tale
I'm relenting to the wind bent on repenting for my sins
I been ascending from the shit 'stead of lamenting everything
I'm more admired and inspired than I've probably ever been
Plus I'm saving all this money for the rent, repent