Difficult Difficult Not being neurotypical Typical Skipping class and losing pens Been deluded since I was ten Had more fun in my own head Why would I let the noise out? Ten years on I'm getting worse Instead of keys I'm losing her I don't feel special I feel cursed It's too late for me now I'm Chasing dopamine I need some more caffeine My skin is crawling off my face I never do a thing While I do a millions things Oh fuck I've forgotten what I was trying to say It's just so Difficult Difficult Not being Neurotypical Typical Of me to be so cynical Clinical When all I want is To turn it off It's just so Difficult Difficult Not being Neurotypical Typical Of me to be so cynical Clinical When all I want is To turn it off The last time someone laid with me They told me my legs needs to calm down My body is bad at resting And I'm just too tired to start counting on sheep now I'm chasing dopamine I need some more caffeine My skin is crawling off my face I never do a thing While I do a millions things oh What I'm trying to say It's just so Difficult Difficult Not being Neurotypical Typical Of me to be so cynical Clinical When all I want is To turn it off It's just so Difficult Difficult Not being Neurotypical Typical Of me to be so cynical Clinical When all I want is To turn it off