Why is it that That I'm loosing control All my words and all my thoughts Mirror everything I got I was drinking by myself From a bottle hidden well Playing records, dancing fast Bitter, tired, throwing glass Showing class See, I didn't feel love From the people I had And I didn't seek help I blamed myself for my past And now I'm alone Thinking about what I'll do next To get me back To get me back Well I'm anxious and I'm nervous And now everyone sees through me I stopped throwing up self hatred And I'm trying to get better But when you're down There is no up And I'm running out of luck The whole family is worried Is it selfish, is it courage Am I done?