Running out of fingers to keep track of all my wrongs Relapse, rebound, rebuild, but still no signs of moving on I thought they said that time was the healer of all pain All I see is change, and I just stay the same I recall a time when that river ran rapid The sun, it shone so bright on each day I'd inhabit What's worse is all the time gone by I lost trying to hide Is the one thing that I keep with me It keeps me up at night I can't pretend That I don't see decline What about the end Justifies the means We're just killing time As if it won't run out I can't sit by and just pretend I broke into that house again It looks just like we left it Dust on dirty photographs Years of being stagnant It's funny how a time and place transcend when you return So I wrote a note without a date hoping that you never learn That I can't pretend That I don't see decline What about the end Justifies the means We're just killing time As if it won't run out I can't sit by and just pretend All I've ever wanted was a name to tangle in these lines All they've ever been about is me And how I can't keep up with life How the days leave me behind And all the nights I drank myself to sleep