Yeah I went to a therapist He's trying to tell me the thoughts that I have in my head are all bad He told me write down my feelings And tell him how I feel about them when they're on the pad I gave an explanation plus an exclamation At the end just to show him I'm mad Product of my environment I don't mean to pass the blame But Imma pass it to my dad I don't like to be the math I don't like to be the stigma I hate how it feels I don't like walking inside of a room And every person looking at me like I'll kill Ya'll don't know how that feels To the people that are mental ill Ya'll don't know Ya'll don't know what it's like to take pills every night And my sudden will Losing control of the thoughts in my head I lay in the blankets inside of my bed Wait till the morning when I take my meds Here let me show you the cycle again I take about two by nine Then one by three Then six to feel anymore I keep on zoning out all the time No wonder the teachers think I'm doing poor The teachers like telling my mother that I can not concentrate listening That I am bored Praying to angels all of the time Me while my demons just knock at my door Here they come Knock, knock are you ready for the violence? Ready for the silence? That comes when you walk around Trying to figure out if, you're misguided And everything you thought is twisted one-sided I've been trying to figure out all of the time What this talking inside my mind is Am I just crazy? Why? Why doesn't anything phase me? Am I just lazy? For thinking, nothing about everything lately I'm feeling it often, all of my sadness Find a way out as aggression I went to the doctors looking for answers But I came out with questions Why do I feel this way? Why do I feel this shame? I blame it on trauma Blame it on dad for not showing the path Depression I have, I blame it on mama Blame all the drama my exes has brought For taking my heart to break it in half Wish upon karma for everybody That's looking my way, and wishing me bad Sleep paralysis, I cannot sleep at night That's when the demons are at it Speaking the matter, thinking too deep I guess it's just part of my habit Been the example of bad Psychiatrist is laughing when I ask him How you gonna give me a psycho-analysis When you need it more than I am?