This is a message to my mum And mum, when you see it I love you to the moon and back Forever and always I'm sorry mama, this shit don't feel the same And I wish that I could hug you and you could heal all of my pain But don't come inside my room Cuz I'll just push you away And that's the point where I get lost It's confusing in my brain I battle all of my problems till I feel like I've gone insane I wanna cherish you mama But I embarrass you mama I can't stop scaring you mama Are you aware of this mama? Cuz I feel hopeless as hell My body's crippled by anxiety I'm choking right now No, I'm not joking right now And me just sending you this Is me just being open right now And I don't want you to feel Like you have to hold the blame It's not your fault that I cry It's not your fault I feel pain It's not your fault that we don't talk like we used to But every time I mess up I feel like I bruise you The last thing I want in this world Is to lose you And I love you But this shit is hard to get used to