My chest hurts I'm falling down the same rabbit hole That I was lost in Hope I find my way out And I can't stop stalling Maybe if I had one more drink I would calm down My head's exhausting And I don't wanna deal with it And you don't wanna deal with me I've been told nothing hurts more than loving me And you don't wanna feel that way And I don't wanna feel that pain Rather you hate me now Get it out of the way You don't wanna deal with me And I don't wanna feel that way If it hurts loving me Get it out of the way Everything slowed down so I sped it up Found some clarity and I threw it all out Thought I had a plan but I made it all up Just going along til I mess it all up My heart strings are pulling, it's aching I used to have drive and it's fading Lately I feel like I'm wasting away I know nobody's waiting Love is blind but I see why loving me is bad A stomped out heart inside a girl with no real plan With a past so dark that she just can't understand Who would ever wanna hold these shaky hands I don't wanna deal with it And you don't wanna deal with me I've been told nothing hurts more than loving me You don't wanna feel that way And I don't wanna feel that pain Rather you hate me now Get it out of the way