There's dark clouds out my window
Bright clouds up ahead
I'm hopeful for the future
But all I see is red
These memories they haunt me
And fill me up with dread
They played me for a fool back then
I remember when you said
I know what's wrong with your mind
You've got to be blind to not see it
How much you act like your father you know
That's because I carry his soul with me now
Wanted to be my own man
And there's nobody who could stop it
But the day I became a man
Was the day that I lost him
But I will try harder than I have
Because I know that he's watching
And I will live with the memories
Like there's no other option
Diagnosed October buried February
Try to act like all of it don't affect me only barely
But the only one I'm lying to is myself
I stayed up all night listening to your breath
And I wish that I could be right by your side
Because the darkness in my heart has got too bright
You would always talk me right off of the ledge
Now you're the voice in the back of my head
Wanted to be my own man
There's nobody who could stop it
But the day I became a man
Was the day that I lost him
But I will try harder than I have
Because I know that he's watching
And I will live with the memories
Like there's no other option
I got way too many memories
I could think about them endlessly
I've got way too many memories
I could think about you endlessly
I got way too many
I got way too many
I got way too many
I got way too many
Wanted to be my own man
There's nobody who could stop it
But the day I became a man
Was the day that I lost him
But I will try harder than I have
Because I know that he's watching
And I will live with the memories
Like there's no other option